April 18, 2008, one of my unforgettable experience happened. After nine months of waiting, In the middle of the dawn i felt a little bit of pain, a pain in the beginning but end with so much ouch, (i thought i was dying that time), but this pain was so unique coz it brings a lot of excitement…. yes,,, there was really an excitement for i know that in just an hour, my bundle of joy will soon come to this earth.
And finally after 12 hours of labor suffering, that same day at around 2.20 in the afternoon ,,, i heard my baby’s first cry.. wheeew… it was so wonderful sound, a music to my ears. It was really happiness, beyond happiness. But still so many questions hanging at the back of my mind. Like, How will i raise my child being alone? What if someday my son will ask me about his father, did he really loved us? How will explain to him that this the real world. That my relationship with his father is not like a fairy tale that ends with a happy ending. Sounds pathetic right? I know being a single mom is really a tough job. But despite of so many questions and a bit of agony, still happiness prevails compared to emptiness.
And now, several months had passed,,, i have now a very wonderful gift from up above,,, my handsome loving son. The best reward that i ever received, my joy, my source of strength and inspiration, and the one why i truly live for. The little boy who changed my whole life. A missing peace that i’ve been looking for, all my life.
In time, when you will read this son, i just want you to know that even without your father beside us,,, i’m still thankful having you. You are not an accident nor a big mistake,, coz you are the one that i am dreaming all my life, and that all i ever wanted. Always remember that momma is so really proud of you.
So blessed to come to a point of realization that God allowed me to experience one of his greatest miracles. Now i know why should i have to work very hard. My priorities are more very clear now.
Finally i can now say,,, at last i am complete…..
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